I hate my life and I don't know what to do?

hi, sorry feeling down tonight , needed talk to, if answer great. im fifteen year old boy, freshman in high school, , hate every part of life , wish go back. had amazing childhood, lots of friends, famly life, , went me. lived mom, dad, brother , sister in neighborhood had lots of friends. fit in , @ school seemed me. when in 5th grade, dad died of heart attack, , mom alone couldn't pay house had t move apartment. brother , sister moved out it's me , mom. when started 6th grade, didn't want switch schools after moving went same school instead of 1 new neighborhood sent kids to. because of this, have no friends live. starting around 7th , 8th grade, friends changed , became rude, concieted people trying grow fast , grown , wanted stay kid. didn't fit in in middle , high school, still childish , rather play club penguin , watch disney channel on twitter , facebook. unsocial, im shy, , didn't make new friends. got made fun of being poor, not having dad, , not having nice clothes or cell phone. im in high school, it's worse. im gay, , treated differently other people , feel can't make friends guys or girls. i've been single, , feel lonely. have 1 close friend now, ive known since kingergarden, has of same problems me. seems older fall more , more being others age , im not outgoing or social. wish kid again stuff didnt matter , friends everybody.plus miss dad , living siblings, there me, not anymore. feel if died no 1 care , im better off dead , wouldn't missed @ all. wondering if on yahoo had advice me? appreciate it, taking time read this, know must annoying.

hi, sorry feeling down tonight , needed talk to, if answer great. im fifteen year old boy, freshman in high school, , hate every part of life , wish go back. had amazing childhood, lots of friends, famly life, and...

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