I HATE homeschooling...?

mom took me out of public school right before middle school. absolutely hate it. started feeling depressed before home school, after started home school when started cutting , first suicide attempt month after started homeschooling. i'm 13 in 7th grade. mom absolutely convinced god told take me out of public school, know it's not true because god prob doesn't want me feel this. feel trapped in gas chamber , i'm dying. it's tearing me apart.

crazy part she's not letting me go regular school till 10th grade can take drivers ed. she's gonna put me in private christian high school. sucks, because friends expecting see me again , learn in 10th grade. that's never gonna happen.

try tell mom how it's making me suicidal , cutter doesn't wanna hear it. says schools bad these days , after sandy hook shooting, starting reconsider ever putting me regular. it's not work related. used work @ old school, quit, , forced me quit too. didn't want too, , remember first attempt suicide on last day of public. trying hold tears @ school day since knew last time see them again, , once stepped in house, lost it. wrapped belt around bunk bed , gonna hang myself. backed out @ last minute have neck/back pains.

don't know anymore. home school has ruined life. mom won't let me go see therapist because says mental hospitals , therapist offices have depressing spirits in them. spiritual?!!! if is, last thing need not able help. in fact, know fact way me run away , go hospital myself.

mom says nothing or no 1 ever convince put me in public, ever. can't anymore. 3 more years of hell on earth? i'm not capable of that. chances i'm end dead suicide then. have had 4 attempts, , there's meds in cabinet if grown man takes more 5 pills @ time defiantly die. i'm serious this.if don't relief, break. , of gonna shouldn't cut, stopped cutting 3 months ago. that's not prob.

theres no 1 can tell because person know mom , says it's phase. i'm kinda trapped here , therefore need releif.

please help, idk @ point. i'm not supposed on internet, except study. oh btw mom thinks i'm studying.

please help. no helpful answer , it.

my mom took me out of public school right before middle school. absolutely hate it. started feeling depressed before home school, after started home school when started cutting , first suicide attempt month after started homeschooling. i'm 13 in 7th grade. mom absolutely...

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